Life will never be the same again...

We have officially passed our first trimester of pregnancy and we are now in week 16 (so I am about 4 months pregnant now; baby bump started to appear just a tad bit and we couldn't be happier.
Now that we are in our second trimester, I am seeing my gynae less often (about once a month) thus we can't see baby Peanut as often as before. Sometimes this makes me super anxious, because I am not sure what's happening in my tummy, especially that I don't really gain weight. I am only 1.5 kg away from my pre-pregnancy weight.

Anyway, in the past few weeks I started to read more about what to prepare for the baby arrival, doing house-viewing (yes, we are planning to upgrade our crib, before the baby arrives) and at the end of it, I was so overwhelmed that I nearly broke down to tears.

I finally came to the realisation that life, from this point onwards, will never be the same again.
It's a mixed feeling - I told Rey that this baby has rocked our world, in a sudden, we need to find a bigger flat (meaning we need to leave our first matrimonial home that we love so much), need to save money for baby delivery, baby stuff and what not.

I can't say that we are fully prepared for this (Well, perhaps Rey is more prepared than me emotionally, as I am always spontaneous and the one who doesn't think too much in this relationship) - but like what most people say "You will never be prepared for a baby".

So just like any other things in my life, I guess I will just have to wing it. 

Morning sickness? What morning sickness?

I have been wondering who on earth actually invented the term "pregnancy glow" - because I don't think I have been glowing at all! To be very honest, my first trimester has been quite hard so far - I feel tired all the time, I have constant back ache, I feel nauseous and always end up throwing up around 7pm (yes! in the evening!).

So weird but true - and if I can describe my "day during this first trimester" - it will be like this :

Wake up at 3:00 AM because I desperately want to pee and then cannot sleep anymore. When I can finally catch some sleep, it's time to wake up and prepare myself to work. In the morning - I am like famished!I can eat one portion of fried beehoon and another set of kaya toast! After that the day just pass by as usual, except that I am actually feeling extra sleepy and tired (and the worst is I can't even have coffee!). When it's about 4:00 pm I will start feeling hungry again and I will start snacking. But then at around 5:00 pm, I will feel bloated. By the time I am sitting in a car to go home, I'd feel like puking already. And tada... I would hug the toilet bowl for about 15 minutes at 7:00pm.  

like that... every single freaking day!
So dinner is definitely something I am not so looking forward to - because I feel nauseous and I always have to think of what kind of food that I can actually digest without making me want to hug the toilet bowl again.

So bottom line is - I actually don't have cravings, it's mostly because I don't want to eat stuff that can potentially make me throw up. So far those would be yong tau fu, white bee hoon, deep fried stuff and chilli! Amazingly if I put chilli on my food, it tastes less "offensive" and my stomach can happily take it.

On the other hands - food that can potentially definitely make me want to puke includes ramen, all Japanese stuff (like sushi - not that I can eat them, but just by looking at them on screen already makes me want to puke! So I guess, lucky me!), pho and prawns.

So freaking unfair - because I used to like all of the above!
Just so you know - I still hate durian though. 

I told my husband that our baby is probably sleeping in US time, hence no morning sickness, instead it's always evening sickness for me.

Anyway, let's just see - hopefully second trimester is easier and smoother.
OK Baby P? High five!

Ciao.

Week 8 - Check up

It's been 2 weeks since our last check-up; so last Saturday (16 Dec), we paid another visit at our Gynae.

Good news is - Baby Peanut is healthy (baby Peanut has grown a little and now it's about 1.5 cm) and for the very first time, we heard baby Peanut's heart beat - My gynae said it was stable at 170 per minute (which Rey thought it's super fast and I agree!).

Anyway, we couldn't be happier! The above is baby Peanut's ultrasound photo (it's the small thing inside the black bubble in the middle).

The next visit is in another 2 weeks from now - it's going to be the down-syndromme test then, so we're praying not only for a smooth pregnancy, but also for good results.

We are planning to take the Harmony test (the one with 99% accuracy) just to be 100% sure - with the test, we can also determine the gender of the baby (even though it's relatively early).

So stay tune! :)

Hello World - version 2.0 (Sh*t Just Got Real!)

Hello All,

LONG TIME NO SEE!

It's me again - as you can see the blog is now renamed and no longer about the tai-tai (wannabe)! Tai-tai life has been long gone (well, obviously - since the last post was on 1st nov 2016!) and surprise, surprise... it is now changed to a pregnancy diary - which is a serious topic in my book (I know, right?!).

So, I guess since this blog is now called a pregnancy journal, I should probably start with a story about how we both got to know that sh* just got real in our lives we're pregnant - before my pregnancy brain fails me.

The story began when we decided to finally try to have a baby around July 2017 (around 3 months after my fibroid surgery). In August, being a naive lady that I am, I confidently thought that I would have gotten pregnant immediately (just like all those teenage girls! LOL), but nope! Period came on time and so did the cramp and the usual back-ache, etc.

Guess what - the same thing happened again the next month and I remembered I was feeling a little bit upset about it. So I decided to just wing it and stop thinking about it. On a positive note, I thought to myself, maybe it doesn't come easy to us, so it means we can enjoy the moment and do what DINK (Dual Income with No Kids) should do - like splurging on shoes (for me!) or upgrading our car to  a two-seater sports car (for him!).

So when Rey told me that he wanted to upgrade our car before the emission surcharge kicked in the next year - I replied,"Up to you! Anyway we won't get pregnant so soon!" He then sent his order in like almost immediately (pretty sure, before I change my mind) and put down whatever deposit crap necessary - And tada... the car should have come in February. He was so looking forward to it.

Two weeks have passed (no day has passed without him showing me how the car would later look like, how beautiful the sound of engine was going to be, what rim colour he would choose, etc.!), my period was late for quite sometime already. However, I didn't actually thought of peeing on a stick yet, because I felt like my back hurt and honestly it felt like I could have gotten my period any day then.

However, on Sunday evening of 25th November 2017, I decided to just peed on a Watsons house brand stick (I am cheapo that way, after wasting 2 Clearblue pee sticks, I thought I wasn't going to pay more for just a pee stick!) - mainly because I wanted to book air tickets to go back to my hometown as well as to Scotland for Spring Holiday. So, if I were to spend that much of money, I thought I needed to be sure that I am not pregnant.

To my surprise - I got two lines on the stick!
Now, we really got caught off guard! I immediately showed it to the husband and he was like, "orh..."
I am not entirely sure what was going on in his mind that time.

I wasn't very convinced actually, so the next day I decided to buy a pack of two pee sticks from the brand Clearblue (Yes, I thought I need two, just in case!), and I still remembered so well I peed immediately in ION Orchard, right after I bought it and it still gives me the same result! So it finally hits me that things will get more serious from now on...

I made an appointment with my gynae, dr. Kelly Loi over the weekend and on Saturday, 2nd December 2017 - she confirmed that we're 6-week pregnant! Yiay!

So that's basically the start of the journey. I guess there will be more to come and more to record here, but we will do it one step at a time.

Though now we're trying to cancel/defer the car order (yes, husband is still not giving up on his dream car!); I guess we have come to term with the fact that life will be different from now on.

We are very excited to see how this journey will pan out.

PS: Before I go - since this little baby peanut is going to be born as Generation Z - again, it's only appropriate if I record anything digitally, so other than this blog, I took the liberty to set-up an instagram account called @ps.iloveu_baby - for any day-to-day updates when mummy is lazy to update the blog.

Ciao.

Day 26 - Welcoming back Stiff Neck and Full-Time Job into My Life

Hello World!

Miss me yet?
I am sorry for being MIA for so long...
Tai-tai was enjoying her 8D7N holiday in Hong Kong with the husband.
It was good, as I got to meet my uncle, aunty, cousins and nieces again... the last time I met them was during my wedding, I think. Not to forget, I got to eat a lot of yummy food that I gained 2 kilos (Another tai-tai's problem - how do you keep your body slim with all the brunches, high teas and sweets?) - ah well.. let's not talk about body weight, k? They are just number... just like age... not very important!

Anyway - nothing much was happening in HK, except that tai-tai got her early anniversary present from the husband (I hope by the time the anniversary comes, he sort of forgets that he has already given a present and he is giving me another one - MUAHAHAHA *Evil grin*).

Anyway, the present is like the the highlight of the trip (well, it is!) and it actually has nothing to do with HK, but ah well... it MAKES ME BERRY BERRY HAPPY.

Moving on - I got a very important announcement to make - my tai-tai life is coming to an end soon... (When I said soon, I mean it - it's like next Monday kinda soon!).
And I know what you're thinking - you must be thinking that it's coming to an end soon, because I just don't enjoy tai-tai life. Do I?

The answer is - you're WRONG, I do enjoy tai-tai life so much and I refuse to say that tai-tai life is not for me, because it is! And I am very good at it, I think. Becca, my dear friend, will say "Amen" with me too,  because you know what? We are very talented in this tai-tai department...

BUT...

I guess real life (read: mortgages to pay, branded bags are expensive and so are gel manicure, spa and facials, massage, etc...) hits me (or maybe it hits my husband?). Besides, I don't really have excuses to stay at home for a longer period (read: like having a baby, perhaps?). Actually think about it - do I need excuses to stay at home forever? *Life crisis*

So the question is - what makes you want to go back to a full-time job?
Well... first of all, I am a gemini, so I am kinda... indecisive (there I said it, DK!).
I want the best of the both worlds - I want to be able to shop, do facials, manicure, pedicure and have an "avenue" to show them off to the world... LOL
If I stay at home or I don't work - the places I go to and the number of people I meet are limited... so the effort I put to do facials, manicure, etc. are sort of wasted...

Do I make sense? I think so!
So yea.. I am quite excited to go to work, I already think of what I will wear on Monday...
and luckily I still got the manicure and pedicure from my HK Holiday... xD

Ciao!

Day 6 - (Fake) tai-tai' first world problem

I am not sure how many of you experiencing the same thing as I do... but I have a problem trying to look pretty decent in front of the husband, after a long day doing house chores at home.

But really... staying at home in the past 6 days got me thinking...

How can a homemaker stay pretty, after a long day of cleaning the house and cooking? How? TELL ME HOW!?!?

When we, women, work in the office - obviously we need to put make-up on (well...at least put something lah... like face powder, brow thingie, whatever) and dress nicely and appropriately. Every now and then you will also get manicure and pedicure just in case, you need to do some presentations (hand gestures!) or you have a new pair of open-toe shoes... you know...

But when we're at home as full-time homemakers, I think the story will be very different....
(Well, if you're a real tai-tai, actually I think this problem won't happen, because you will have maids to do the chores. In fact, you can probably train your maids to do your own manicure and pedicure at home! OMG, I think this is such a brilliant idea! Hey you all in Indonesia.. yes, send the maid to nail school and you can save cost doing mani-pedi at home!)

OK OK.. let's continue - As a homemaker (ehm ehm...) honestly, I don't even have the appetite to get my nails done anymore (Shocking!); just because when I cook (and I cook everyday now, except for the weekends), I have to chop the bloody garlics, onions, shallots etc...
I have to wash my hands and my nails like more than a hundred times, just to get ride of the smell. Imagine if I have my nails well manicured, I think they will chip in no time...
Or worse...the chipped nail polish could potentially go inside the dish...

Oh dear...I cannot even start to imagine...

When I am home, I just find it silly to suddenly dress up and put on make up just for a 2-hour show, to greet the dear husband who just got home from work...
It will be such a waste of energy and products right?
(FYI - Obviously I don't do any of that in the past 6 days. What really happened was that he came back and I was still in the same outfit as this morning when he left...)

Anyway... I still don't have a solution for this big issue.
Yes, it is a big issue - I was just imagining, if I were a husband and I came back home and found my wife in an unflattering outfit, no make-up face, garlic-smelled nails - I would probably be leaving her sooner or later.

So if I have to stay at home full-time. I don't want to be that unattractive woman (not only for the husband, but also for myself). Besides, I will most probably lose my barely-there-make-up skills too!

Oh... nightmare!

So dear mommies or stay-at home wives (or guys!) out there - Please enlighten me! 

Day 5 - yes yes...still alive and trying to do downward facing dog at home

Hi all,

Today I ease myself out... I don't actually plan anything, I take my own sweet time to do whatever I want for the day.

I finally had a long overdue chat with both my mother and my mother in-law (well.. basically one thing that I don't usually do or I cannot do, because I have work) about stuff... (hahaha you can call them tai-tai stuff - believe it or not, we were talking about plastic surgery to what's happening with Indonesian celebrity to why my mother and I both cannot cook... OMG it's in the blood!)

I also did yoga (thanks to Mike for reminding me that a tai-tai also needs her daily dose of yoga to make her life complete and also thanks to Smart TV! I can do yoga, without actually taking any classes outside) It's kinda good to do yoga at home, because I don't need to fork out money and hey my home also has a view that seems to be very relevant (?) for yoga...

Let me share with you my view this afternoon...

Now, I am cooking dinner for the husband...
Sigh... I guess I surrender to the fact that I can't really cook fancy stuff.
Tonight, I am cooking chicken with broccoli...

 Seems like today I got not much update...
Anyway, tomorrow I have another lunch with (not) tai-tai friends, hopefully tomorrow my life will be more happening...

Ciao!